feelin like shit right now...

just came back home... feelin so fucked up now... it's da hols... i know it's da hols... why do i keep lettin her get to me? why? i know very well her freakin intentions... and yet i still let it happen... why? why? why?

i know very well what kinda person i am... and i should be proud of who i am... cuz i think that everything i have gone thru has made me a better person... and yet, why do i get manipulated? why do i let myself believe what she says? i know that i am better now... better than who i used to be... if i'm so confident, den why am i feelin like shit right now?